When I began this journey to Thailand I sort of thought that my life in Chicago would be placed on hold. I pressed pause and left without thinking otherwise.
Well, reality found me this week to remind me that life in Chicago is in full motion and when I return I will find my life has been fast forwarded. While my apartment will still be there and my possessions on the shelves, there will be people who will be gone, and relationships that have transformed.
I have also come to realize that I used Thailand as an escape from the situations, discussions, and people I did not want to confront. bad idea. Please understand, I did not solely come to Thailand to leave my problems behind. I fully believed and still believe that Thailand is the best decision for my life right now, but I used it as an accuse to not deal with situations that needed to be dealt with at the time...I just thought, "I can't bring this up now, I'm leaving in a couple weeks, when I leave these problems will go away and I will come back to them resolved...they will magically disappear once I am absent." I looked to Thailand as a way to flee from stress and conversations that I truly needed to have. When I return, the need for those conversations will still be there, but the opportunity and relevance to discuss them, lost.
So, where does that leave me and my unresolved conversations?...you tell me.
1 comment:
they still must be had... because they are still unresolved.... just more conversation will have to take place.. at least that's what i think!
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